Vertigo

 Vertigo

I feel like I’m being gaslit… but that’s the nasty thing, isn’t it? You just can’t tell. Everything feels like it’s 2 inches to the left, and a half-inch forward from where it used to be. It gets my hackles up. A sickening prickle at the base of my spine. Every step feels like a mis-step, and I’m ready to fall face-first into whatever it is that catches me.

Were those drapes blue? Wasn’t that plant on the left?

And then it gets personal. My friends don’t seem to remember what I do. I feel like I’m slipping into someone else’s life, barely distinguishable from my own. I’m in the wrong place. The wrong body. I thought we had dinner together last week… or was it the week before? It starts with simple things- things that are easily mistakable. You make concessions. Maybe you’re just mis-remembering. Everyone does, we’re only human, right? But it starts to add up. How much can one person really forget before they start to question their own mental fortitude? Spanned out over a long enough period of time, you might never. Small things, here and there. Tiny changes. Minuscule; until your whole world is different and you concede that it was ever thus.

And what would I do if I knew for sure? If I retraced the steps? If I found out who or what was doing this to me? What power in the universe, to move me molecule by molecule into someone else’s life? It would drive anyone mad to face that, don’t you think? At this point I’m almost there, as it is.

I’m just not sure about anything anymore. There’s a whole ‘nother life in a dream that I remember; I think it might be real. Might have been real.

I don’t know what to say… or to whom. It’s not safe.

Vertigo 2Credits under cut

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Kawaii @ +Blue Blood+

Once upon a time there was a noob named Lola. She loved exploring sims and finding EGL stores to stalk. She would save her money and buy lovely dresses at each of the stores. Eventually she was buying more and more items at this little store called +Blue Blood+ and found the most precious gift ever a really great friend.
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I have always loved shopping at +Blue Blood+. My first encounter in her store I saw some outfits named after the characters in Dune. I knew from that moment she would become one of my favorite creators. I am blessed to now call her one of my friends. Although I don’t see her much on SL *shakes fist at time zones* I am always excited to see what she makes.

Last week she dropped the new Chesh Outfits on me, there are several colors to choose from but I stuck with Blue and Purple. The outfit comes complete with a pair of boots and its all in mesh, there is also a system layer bra so there is no oops you saw my booby moments. All of Ghanima’s creations are hand painted meticulously and I love the extra detail she puts in her creations. Try the demo before purchasing, but she does offer the items in Standard SL Mesh Sizing.

So up first is a pic of me being cheesy and showcasing my awesome new skin by [AMITOMO]. I loved how beautiful the skin is and it gave me a youthful look that fit my kawaii style I was going for. I added a couple makeup layers by Rozena and eyelashes by Schadenfreude to add to youthful look.
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